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14 February 2009 @ 09:13 pm
thetenspot Canon - We just gotta deal with this.  
He got tired of communicating with her via the internet in an apartment we share - it's truly ridiculous when you think about it. So, He decided to head to her room, knocking twice before entering. It wasn't like she was truly going to protest.

He couldn't stop thinking about the possibilities and how things had to be different now. She wasn't suppose to be able to have children but she was pregnant, that meant something had changed. Maybe they had changed things and she still didn't understand the half of what they meant to each other on this deep cosmic level that he now embraced with open arms. She was underneath his skin, etched there like she belonged.

It had to mean something.

"I thought we should actually be in the same room while we talk about this."

[open to coldinitsarms]
Aspen Vienne: stop following misery's leadcoldinitsarms on February 15th, 2009 02:24 am (UTC)
"Probably," she admitted. It wasn't the best way to break news to him, but there were times she found it so difficult just to look him in the eye. And maybe she was avoiding just this. This conversation. The idea of giving in to him.

She ran her fingers through her hair and slowly looked up to him. She pressed her lips together. Her stomach churned unpleasantly. She felt nervous.

"So, talk," she prompted him, barely taking a breath.
Axel Nicholai Fagan: unsureprotecting_her on February 15th, 2009 02:28 am (UTC)
He resisted the urge to roll his eyes. Like he hadn't been the one who'd had something huge spring on him? Right. It was always Pen's way or the high way.

"First things first," He said moving over to gather the necklace he'd gotten her for Valentines day. He unclasped it and waited until she pulled her hair back before he placed the diamond heart around her neck.
Aspen Vienne: [a/a] the past knocks on your doorcoldinitsarms on February 15th, 2009 02:35 am (UTC)
She sighed at the cool metal and his fingertips against her skin. Picking up the heart at the bottom, she gazed at it. It was really quite beautiful. Something he knew exactly that she would like.

It was infuriating how much he knew her without her saying a word to him. Once upon a time they had been best friends. He was her first and only crush. She used to imagine her dream wedding to him. They grew up together and she did watch him go through girls. Things got really bad when she found out her destiny. He knew and she was so angry. She couldn't connect anymore.

"I thought you didn't believe in Valentine's Day."
Axel Nicholai Fagan: watching the world fallprotecting_her on February 15th, 2009 02:39 am (UTC)
He shrugged. "You do. Besides, I needed an excuse to give this to you," He said, moving to sit on her bed.

He grabbed the ring from her pillow and sighed, looking down on it. Two hearts linked by one row of diamonds. It seemed a little symbolic to him now.

"This one I had an urge to buy last week, I don't know what possessed me. I wasn't even thinking about the day. Just you, us, this life. As much as you piss me off Pen, you know what you mean to me."
Aspen Vienne: how fragile you arecoldinitsarms on February 15th, 2009 02:44 am (UTC)
He wasn't supposed to be romantic now and make this all seem like a dream come true. Didn't he know how hard he made all of this.

"You've never needed excuses to buy me pretty things," she said, letting the smile show if even for a brief moment.

She let him take her hand and slide the ring onto her finger. Their hands lingered there, neither of them any eager to pull away. She stared down at the ring.
Axel Nicholai Fagan: exploitationprotecting_her on February 15th, 2009 02:49 am (UTC)
"You think I don't know your life is difficult, you think I don't know how angry you are. What do you think my teenage years were? I was rebelling, being stupid. I had the music and the women when I was suppose to be preparing," He shook his head.

"Preparing for you to find out, for you to die. Like I could stand the thought even back then."

He let out a breath and looked up at her.

"There are still things you don't know Pen, things I can't even begin to explain cause hell if I actually know what it all really means anyway. Mum died too quick and they came too quick. We're just in this together, we're always going to be in this together. Why must you make it so difficult?"
Aspen Vienne: i'm just a girl [nothing more]coldinitsarms on February 15th, 2009 02:58 am (UTC)
"You were my best friend," she admitted, eyes threatening to water. He barely knew that. "You were the only one I ever had and you knew. You knew all of this was going to happen, that we'd have to go away, that I had to run until some mythical day where I save the world and then I die. I don't even know when that day is going to be. I can't just quit. All I've ever wanted to do was just quit and live a normal life. God, Ax, I would kill to do normal things like go to dances and marry you and become... I don't know, an accountant."

She was crying, she had to wipe at her face quickly. Her throat closed in a little.

"I don't want to prepare for this."
Axel Nicholai Fagan: protect herprotecting_her on February 15th, 2009 03:03 am (UTC)
He pulled her close to him, into his lap where he was sitting on the bed.

"I don't either and I'm not. For so long I didn't know what I was preparing for and then they told me and I told them to shove donkey cocks up their arses, all of them, I was just 16."

He shook his head and pressed his chin atop her head.

"I guess they didn't account for love. Cause Pen, if there's anything I can do, and believe me, I'm trying; to take this burden from you, I'll do it. To keep you alive, I'll do it. Even if it means not having you. I want that life, you in a frilly white gown and sexy knickers underneath," He grinned a bit.

"And babies and normal things ... All I can do is try and I'm trying like hell. Know that. Know I'm fighting for you, I'm always fighting for you."

He sighed again, knowing he sounded dramatically English. Something out of a modern day Shakespeare play. The man could learn something from him about tragedy. If they did have this baby it wouldn't be just her leaving it; but he couldn't imagine not having it now that he knew.

"I love you, Pen."
Aspen Vienne: waiting on your supernovacoldinitsarms on February 15th, 2009 03:10 am (UTC)
He wanted to make her swoon, she was sure of it. God, he couldn't be any more ridiculously romantic than he was here.

She cupped his cheek. "You are not supposed to say all the right words," she breathed. He said the right words and then she'd swoon and forget about all the other horrible important things they needed to do - that they were supposed to do.

She sighed and kissed him, she couldn't not. Who was she kidding trying to pretend to hate him all the time just to get by? It didn't work. None of this worked because the only reason she was alive was him. She kissed him harder.
Axel Nicholai Fagan: i am only meprotecting_her on February 15th, 2009 03:13 am (UTC)
Axel wrapped his arms tightly around her. This was what he wanted, the thing that haunted his dreams. A chance to touch her and have her want him to when he wasn't bleeding to death.

To know that she wanted him right beside her. He was pathetic when it came to her, mooning and pining since she'd hit the very same age that his burden had been laid upon him.

"You are so beautiful, Pen," He breathed against her eager lips.
Aspen Vienne: show up when it's darkcoldinitsarms on February 15th, 2009 03:20 am (UTC)
She looped an arm around his neck, pulling her tighter to her. She leaned her forehead against his, feeling his breath against her lips before she kissed him again.

"You are everything to me," she breathed. She was carrying his child. She felt better when they weren't fighter than they were closer than anything. They had those moments, barely at all since the last time.

"Don't let me go."
Axel Nicholai Fagan: protect herprotecting_her on February 15th, 2009 03:22 am (UTC)
"Not even if you begged, you have begged actually, I'm glad I'm really stubborn," He breathed lightly. Just to lighten this mood for a moment.

His hand ran over her back lightly, holding her close to him.

"You could marry me, you know. We might never get normal but we could have as much of a life together as people in our situation can. Your father might kill me if he finds out though," He said with a small smile.

"But you could marry me, be mine."
Aspen Vienne: let's go back to thatcoldinitsarms on February 15th, 2009 03:27 am (UTC)
Ridiciously romantic. She sighed and took off her ring to hand to him.

"You're supposed to get down on one knee and ask me," she breathed, feeling the smile just overcome her face. He wasn't asking her because they were going to have a family. She knew that.

She wouldn't have the dream wedding she had plotted in her mind for years. Not the cake or the dress, but... he was the dream.
Axel Nicholai Faganprotecting_her on February 15th, 2009 03:32 am (UTC)
"This isn't an engagement ring, I'm getting you something proper," He said giving her a look. He took the ring and put it back on her ring finger, on her right hand.

"You might want to pick it out yourself," He said looking at her.

"But that would require an answer and you're on my lap so I can't really get down on one knee without making you crash to the floor," He grins, moving to do so but holding on to her tightly, so she'll end up sitting on his knee.

"Aspen Vienne, Will you marry me?"
Aspen Viennecoldinitsarms on February 15th, 2009 03:39 am (UTC)
"I will," she said. "On one condition." She ran her fingers against his face, she could feel the slightest stubble against her fingertips. He was so beautiful and on more than one occasion she knew he knew she noticed.

"You take care of our child when I'm gone," she said seriously, letting out a breath. "I don't want to be like my mother, I don't want to leave you or her alone, but.... my father can barely look at me because of it. I need you to be better," she breathed.

"That and you should ravish me after this," she breathed in a laugh.
Axel Nicholai Faganprotecting_her on February 15th, 2009 03:43 am (UTC)
He swallowed just a bit. He knew he should tell her, that she'd hate him when she found out but he couldn't risk her wanting to get rid of their baby. He had this unflappable hope that he could change their destiny and he knew he should be a realist but he loved her too much to just accept things like they were.

"I swear to you that our child will be taken care of, no matter what. I will take care of her or him to the best of my ability forever. I swear it Pen."

It was true. He would do whatever he could for their child. A child he didn't intend to leave behind but the chances weren't in their favor and he knew it; he knew she'd look on the reality side, want to be rational. He'd stopped being rational long ago.

He would take care of their child but he couldn't, literally, live in a world without her in it.

"But I'll never be okay without you. I'm not your father but I'll never be okay."
Aspen Viennecoldinitsarms on February 15th, 2009 03:48 am (UTC)
She could understand that. She threaded her fingers into his hair and nodded at his words. "Thank you," she breathed, relieved as she leaned her head against his.

This wasn't supposed to be possible. They really must not have planned for love because she wasn't supposed to have children or get married or any of those things, but they were going to.

"I love you, Ax," she breathed, meeting his eyes. "Make love to me now that you're not all bleeding from multiple wounds."
Axel Nicholai Faganprotecting_her on February 15th, 2009 03:53 am (UTC)
"Damn right I will. I'm going to make sure you never even think of that noisy machine again, never in all my life have I been jealous of a sex toy," He teased moving up to scoop her in his arms and lay her back on the bed.

"We're throwing it away, immediately," He said as he met her lips and kissed down her neck.

He was determined that she'd never go wanting ever again if he had anything to say about it and he did. He had a damn lot to say about it.

"It'll be better this time, I can take my sweet time with you, show you exactly how much I love you," He breathed, tugging her shirt over her head and pressing his mouth back to her bare skin.
Aspen Viennecoldinitsarms on February 15th, 2009 03:58 am (UTC)
She grinned widely at his jealousy. He was jealous of batteries. "Why exactly did you think I needed it so much?" She teased, tightening her fingers in his hair.

She'd imagined this about a hundred times or more. There were nights she woke sweaty and hot just from dreams of him doing just this.

"It was pretty good the last time, aside from all the blood," she arched her neck with a sigh, pulling up his shirt. Her nails ran along his back.
Axel Nicholai Faganprotecting_her on February 15th, 2009 04:04 am (UTC)
"That was nothing Pen, nothing at all," He wasn't going to bring up his experience because he knew it would ruin the mood and would always be a sore spot between them.

"This time, I'm doing all the work," He breathed.

He ran his hands light over her body.

"And you will never need or want that bloody battery operated toy again."

[Fade to black sex]